Feel It All

Occasionally a person comes along that feels like magic. Magic in the sense that they help restore your soul and heal places in your heart that have experienced tremendous pain and grief. No matter how long they are in our lives, they will forever be remembered as a cornerstone of strength and healing. Every touch feels like a warm invitation to come closer. Everything they do is on purpose. It is for you. It is about you. It is in reflection of you.

I’ve recently experienced someone like this. And some how in such a short time, I remember what it is like to be seen, to be heard, to be free. It is like learning about love all over again, except it has become a reflection of the love I have for myself. My sister, Anna, is full of wisdom. And today she sent me a text that said, “who we are on the inside is exactly who we attract into our lives.” And if that is true then I could not be prouder of who I am and who I attract into my life. It is not because I am perfect or put together in this process, but I am leaning in purposefully, learning to love all the unique facets of myself as I walk through deep loss and grief. Instead of hiding, I am shining a light. Instead of holding back, I am letting go. Instead of controlling, I am opening my hands.

Glennon Doyle quotes an unknown author in her book and I’ve come to realize that it is the truest thing I know right now. “Maybe the journey isn’t about becoming. Maybe it’s about un-becoming everything that isn’t really you, so you can become who you were mean to be in the first place.” Maybe it is about loss…in order to gain. Maybe it is about grief in order to know true joy. Maybe it is about moving forward and bumping into magic along the way. So, I am opening my hands, opening my heart, and learning to make my voice the loudest. I am learning to feel it all. And if you find people who also feel it all, love them fiercely.